). Thanks for sharing another update and good luck with all your appointments. ). Thanks for sharing another update and good luck with all your appointments. 
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I hope she is on the way of recovery, as much as one can recover with this kind of illness. All best wishes to her and much much health 
), but on the inside I feel like crying. I have some important tests coming up soon, like the new MRI next Monday, and I'm just so scared. I'm sick and tired of the painful needle treatmeants at the doctors' as my veins are not willing to co-operate anyore... sometimes, like last Saturday, I am somewhere outside and hear a sound in a shop or else and it sounds like the machine during raiotherapy and it shocks me to the bone as memory returns within the blink of an eye.... I feel like crying as I haven't talked to anyone about my fears in order to let go of it and it returns during my sleepless nights more and more often lately.... aside from the physical things I have to live with every day. Sigh. Not easy wearing a smile and laugh anf be happy while you cry on the inside 
but you know, it can always be worse, so who am I to complain 
Meanwhile I must go now and get some sleep so goodnight..